I had completed the first part of my training. I had learned how to be in the center of my head, how to own my space more and was feeling powerful. I was young - early 20's - and a bit cocky. From my arrogant point of view, I thought I could stop my training for the time being, since I had "it" all figured out anyway.
I was, at the time, involved with a woman who was trying, not very successfully, to move out her family group mind. It was a group mind that supported male and female being in battle and was connected to a larger "female destroy" group mind. The goal was to keep the male and female game alive on many different levels on the planet, making sure that male and female were not in harmony.
Group minds are not connected to Source and do not have the ability to channel Source energy. They choose to be disconnected from Source. Source created the Universe from a place of free will that allows all beings to create anything. Some choose to break the connection with Source. They move around this world, this domain, and on many other dimensions as well, and draw energy from other beings in order to survive. They pull these beings into group minds, and they become one with them. The being in the group mind loses his or her personal space but, according to the group mind, becomes more powerful. It is not true power at all, but the force of the collective can be very strong.
Depending on how much energy and/or personal space an individual gives up to a group, he/she can become quite aggressive on an energy level, and physically in some cases. The beings in the group mind need energy to survive, and so they create abuse situations. They create whatever they need to in order for people to stay hooked into them so they can draw energy from them. The more beings they have in the group mind who have lost their space, the more energy they have to survive.
Many group minds are in collaboration with other group minds in order to support this whole game. The male/female game on the planet is a way of keeping this dynamic happening. It is a way of guarding energy sources to facilitate the continued existence of these group minds.
It is important to realize, however, that any one of the beings held within a group mind can choose to be free. They can pull themselves out of the group mind. They can leave the group mind and reconnect with Source and have their autonomy again. A large part of the healing work, of integrity, that happens on the planet is assisting people to move out of energy situations which do not allow them freedom or autonomy.
Now, back to my story. Contrary to what I thought at the time, I was not yet very powerful as Spirit in my body. I was young in my process of becoming a Spiritual Warrior, and the woman that I was seeing, as I said, was very connected to this group mind. One day, when I was not expecting it at all, that group mind saw an opportunity and basically attacked my third chakra. I lost a tremendous amount of energy. My body became very depleted.
Thankfully, I knew of a Spiritual Warrior, a healer, who I could call. I contacted her and she asked me to come right over. It took most of a day, but she helped to repair my third chakra. There was so much damage to my third chakra that I could have gotten very sick. If I had allowed this dynamic to continue I could have been depleted to the point of dying. With energy reading and healing, and the necessary replacement of large pieces of the chakra, the healer and I repaired the whole area that day. I came out of that experience and was fortunately able to understand the dynamic of what had happened.
I continued to see the woman I was dating, but I knew I had to be aware, and I needed to protect my space. I decided to continue with my training from that day on. I had come to realize the level at which the male/female game is played out on the planet and if I was going to be here, I needed to have much more awareness and power.
On the spiritual journey, there is inherent value in every worldly experience and nothing ever truly goes wrong. There is always a gift within. The experience I have related was a creation of mine that forced me to wake up in order to get back on my appropriate journey spiritually and do the rest of my training. It needed to happen. It was certainly an aggressive and dramatic event, but it got me back on my path, and I thank everybody involved in facilitating that shift for me. Life is never right or wrong or good or bad. It is always just what you need to get the next piece spiritually. Every aspect of reality is an important opportunity to learn and to grow.
